I have made a decision. I have to focus exclusively on myself and making myself better while also making sure that I maintain my relationship with my son. My wife is just being too difficult and unreasonable because she can.
This past Sunday, I ran the Rock and Roll Chicago ½ Marathon. It was an amazing feat and one that I will never have to repeat. It’s something that I can check off of my bucket list. I will NEVER run a marathon!! Not that I couldn’t do it, but I just think the idea of doing twice what I did on Sunday is crazy. The ½ marathon was something that I wanted to accomplish for me.
My wife and son met me at the finish line which was really nice. We went out for lunch afterwards and had a really nice family day together. But unfortunately what typically happens after we have a nice day like that together, my wife will become distant and uncooperative. I can’t remember if I told you in a previous post, but my wife told me that she was wanted to try and work things out and work towards getting back together. My prayers had been answered…or so I thought. Every time I try and be friends with her, ie. talk like we always have about entertainment, soaps, the news, etc, she talks to me, but it’s very different than it used to be. It’s somewhat cold and distant. Not every time, but usually after we’ve seen each other and had a good time, that’s when she gets distant. At least she’s laughing with me again. It was a long time coming before I could make her laugh like I used to. It seems as though every time I try and keep our friendship alive, she starts being very defensive. Where is it written that there has to be animosity because we’re separated? This last incident has led me to believe that my wife is more immature than I originally thought. She sent me an email about one of our animal babies having a baby. I said I wanted to come see it. She ignored that request. I sent her another request to come see it and she ignored that one as well. I called her about something else and decided to speak the things that don’t get said. I asked her if she had a problem with me coming over. She said that I didn’t need to come over; she would send a picture. I asked why she had a problem with me coming over. She said that I was using it as an excuse. I asked, “An excuse for what?” She said that I couldn’t just come over anytime I wanted. I agreed and said that that was why I was asking. She said that if we made plans that I could come over. So I said, ‘OK, let’s make plans.” She said no. I asked why and she said something about not knowing her schedule or something and I asked her why she even needed to be there. The exchange went on for a few more seconds and then she threatened to take out another order of protection on me or perhaps a restraining order. She said, “Do you want to go through that again?” I started to say something else and she hung up. I’m stunned and baffled as to why she is behaving like this. I’m really pissed because she has the law on her side even though I’m not doing anything harassing or threatening. I’m not understanding why she has to be so unreasonable all the time.
In any case, I have to stop wondering. I can’t drive myself crazy wondering why she has to be so immature all the time. I just wish it didn’t have to be like this. It makes it very difficult to try and maintain a friendly relationship with her as well as continue to see my son. I don’t want her interfering with me and my son’s relationship, but she knows that she could if she wanted to. Just like she knows that she can get a court order to keep me away if she tells them that I threatened her or that I’m harassing her. It’s just not fair, but I pray to God that she gets some help soon.
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